Well, the cat is out of the bag! Can you tell how excited I am to share the big news? Holy neck clench. Ha. I am entering my second trimester and I am starting to feel human again. Now all the radio silence makes sense. I forgot how EXHAUSTING the first trimester is, not to mention that I was eating donuts and domino's because that's all that sounded good and I didn't want to disappoint anyone;). I am so happy to say that I am back on the healthy eating train and it feels so good! I had a few friends tell me today that they knew I was pregnant because of what I was eating, wearing, etc.
With Matilda I was so anxious for a baby. We were charting and planning and I was eating, sleeping baby. Then that little angel came along and I thought, I could be happy with just being a mom to her. The thought of changing our family felt foreign and then as time passed I kept thinking and praying and finally I just told God that if He would bless us with another baby then I would be the happiest girl, but I was also content if that wasn't in the cards for us. Sure enough, after getting nauseous during a trip to Pike's nursery, I decided to take a test and... it was positive! We seriously couldn't believe it and I truly believe that babies are miracles and I don't take a second of it for granted. I feel like the luckiest Mom in the world.
We've had a few tiny bumps in the road where I felt led to change our Dr practice and today was our first appointment with our new doctor and we loved her. She was just what I was looking for and I'm thankful for that. She has excellent bedside manner and offered me peanut butter and crackers when I got a little woozy from all the blood testing and she liked my outfit. Winner!
Matilda is beyond excited about being a big sister. We finally told her today and her reaction brought tears to my eyes. She is such a loving, curious, darling little girl. Thank you Jesus. She had asked me a couple of weeks ago if I had a baby in my tummy and then told me, "we needed to talk about it." She's clever that's for sure.
I also just feel the need to say that I know a lot of my friends have struggled with infertility and even loss and I am very sensitive to that. I feel incredibly unworthy and guilty sometimes that I would be allowed this experience and they wouldn't be. To all of these friends, it doesn't go unnoticed and I love you all dearly and pray that each one of you would have the desires of your hearts.
Thank you so much for all of the well wishes that we've already received today. We are walking a little lighter than normal. <3
