LIFE AS THE FOUR OF US








Life lately... is full, blessed, sleep deprived, busy, full of tiny toes gazing, forehead kissing, snuggling, completely beautiful.

Things I forgot about having a newborn: unexplained wet spots, discerning cries, living by the feeding clock, how much stuff you tote around, how long it takes to leave the house, how good they smell, how kissable those cheeks are, they have the cutest sneezes and coughs, lots of little diapers, fitting those curled up arms and legs into tiny sleeves and pant legs, the sweetest sighs and coos, the little spasms they have when they're startled, that there is more laundry than I can keep up with. It's all so good.

Matilda has done an incredible job at adjusting to life with Phoebe. She dotes on her and loves kissing her tiny head. She talks so sweetly to her and wants to help as much as possible. I find myself just beaming with pride at their sisterly bond. Matilda has such a big heart and has shown no signs of jealousy so far. She's so precious. I try as much as I can to give them equal love and attention, lots of kisses and hugs, and we read stories together which is one of my favorite parts of the day.

Sam and I are doing our best to function each morning. We have been taking shifts where Sam will sleep on the couch with Phoebe for a few hours and bring her to me to nurse. It allows me to get at least a few solid hours of sleep at night. Matilda is usually ready to go at seven which is probably the most sleep challenging part of the puzzle. I know it will get easier, but right now I can't keep my head up past 9.

I also forgot how hard it is to get out the door, especially now with two little ones to get ready. Next week will be my first go at taking and picking Matilda up from preschool. I also have a solo Dr.'s appointment. Daunting! I know I'll figure things out. One day at a time. I'm also having a bit of a panic attack about getting all of my holiday lists checked off. Do I really have it in me to address 50+ cards this year? Will I get everything done? I'm a little terrified. Praying that everyone has a little extra grace for me this year...

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